As far as I can remember, I made it clear that I only wanted two things in life; treat people as I wanted to be treated, and never ever embrace normalcy. The thought of being like everyone else terrified me. Never once did I imagine my life would sink in to complacency. After much thought and consideration, I decided to break the cycle of being cloaked in mediocracy.
So the bright idea of a “road trip” came to mind. Sure I thought, “ of course it’s insane to drive half way across the country by yourself, but damn…it’s so appealing”. I’ve never embraced planning or ever really been on time to anything in my life. Sure, it’s easy to set an alarm and jot down the daily agenda. Frankly, for me it’s quite an unfamiliar task. It’s never too late to try something out I guess. I just couldn’t wrap my head around staying the discovery channel junkie or being the girl who lived a very cliché life. I guess you can say I wanted the feeling of being a freshly rattled snow globe but in an unexplicable way. Tangibly, I wanted to feel alive and renewed beyond a 5 second kiss or a 29 year survivable life. Quite quickly, I realized I didn’t want to limit myself. Sure I would make the proper preparations and see to it my car was in tip top shape. And yes, I would purchase the best and greatest survival gear on the market. With that said, nothing would prepare me for the journey ahead.
to be continued.........
4 comments:
I suspect our views on life are similar Kimmie. Being normal terrifies me too. However being different brings with it a whole new raft of problems, people who want all the normal things resent you as you are not part of the herd. Individualism can be very frightening for some people. Nevertheless I doubt very much that your life fell into complacency as you don’t seem the complacent sort, ‘on hold’ might be a better label. I would say that somebody who makes off-the-wall gestures like sending cowboy hats half way around the globe is still very much alive.
I understand your road trip better than most, as I too need to get away and feel the rain on my face and touch the face of God. We all get lost at home and the paradox is we have to go out to find ourselves…. There must be traces of the old pioneering West still out there somewhere it’s only a question of finding it. Stay safe but not too safe.
Like you, Kimmie, I'm just off on a rather vaguely planned trip - exciting isn't it? Have a great time.
Incidentally, I am normal, it's just everone else who isn't. xxx
I would agree Saffy. I'm still very much "alive", but yes, very much "on hold". Nevertheless, my ever beating heart pushes me forward.
I hope you have fun on your trip Monica:)
Oh BTW Saffy...my IM changed. I can't remember my PW so I had to change it. It's posted in my google Profile....take care ladies.
A wonderful intro, Kimmie. I look forward to reading more. Welcome back.
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